I've kind of lost motivation to get up and be useful lately, so I've been rolling out of bed at like.... noon. Today, however, the same exact "augh i do not want to get out of bed" process occurred, and I flopped out of the bed at what I was sure had to be like 2 in the afternoon, only to find that it was.... nine. AM. HOW DOES THAT EVEN WORK? so then i trudged to the library in the freezing cold (and holy crap is it cold here, let me tell you) to discover i haven't rest my clock in like a week. This being important because it means I've been mentally in the wrong timezone. wooooow, self. just, wow.

although I am pretty tired as hell, and nobody's ever on around now because unlike me they actually have important stuff to be doing. YEEAAAH TOTALLY JUST BURNED MYSELF though really, i think the tired is more due to the fact that in my laziness I've basically destroyed all of my good healthy eating habits, which... oh well, i guess that's bound to happen in winter. all i've been drinking lately is soda and espresso orz. I'm sure if i go purchase some actual drinks i will be feeling much better. ..... i wonder if our 7-11 has half gallons of milk. I've run out and I really don't feel like going to jewel for only milk when it's this cold. WHAT IS THIS BULLSHIT. and it's not even to the freezing months yet oh my god. why, midwest. why.

I GUESS I WILL. actually work on my application lmfao wow. I finished my journal setting up, at least! which... might not have been the best idea considering it's not even January and I'm still in a bit of a debate over the exact point I want to take him from with Dawn of the Golden Witch coming out soon. Well, there's definitely no way I'm waiting for that to app, but it's like... FFFFFF the eternal dilemma of trying to play main characters whose canons haven't finished. I almost wish I hadn't put a thing that plays Dread of the Grave on there, too, because I always have to press the button. Always. since i hear that and go "fljgf battler you're such a badass." that fucker has better icons than i do, too, what the hell. I think I'm due for a rehaul so I can evict all the ugly crap 8(; which comprises half my icons fml.

MOVING ALONG SLOWLY BUT SURELY IN MY XS REPLAY. it. i kind of want to hurry up and get to playing II again due to character bias. |D O WELL, I'LL GET THERE. maybe.

Oh, apparently my Umineko tag count has upped my Savers tag count. .... holy crap.

edit; UMINEKO CHIRU SPOILERS IN COMMENTS.

Sooo, I had a random thought.

UMINEKO CHIRU SPOILERS FOR BOTH EP5 AND 6.

( hi, spoilers. )

although speaking of EP6, I can't believe it's being released this month jkfgaldgsdfgfdg. YOU ARE A CRAZY MAN, RYUKISIHI07. how am i going to avoid spoiling the fuck out of myself like I did for 5. just. holy crap. /sobs.

FUCK YES, GEORGE.

i was going to glitter font but the stupid website's bandwidth is exceeded ffffffuuuuuu.

BUT YEAH pretty fun episode. I was hoping they would go into to OHHHHHH DEESSSSIIIIYAAAAHHHH after that Thing that happens directly after the fights, but. o well. as long as they aren't rushing some scenes i love that come later I am good.

So excite for next episode. need moar Battler in my life, man. it is required. jl;sgfg /biased forever and ever.

OH RIGHT I am replaying Xenosaga \o/ I've currently just met Junior, though he hasn't met up with the main group yet, so... still considerably early. This game is a lot easier than I remembered lmfao. That FUCKING DOMO CARRIER did manage to kill me twice, but that was because the fuck's Tremor attack kept getting assigned to the Critical Up event slot, which.... AUGH, WHY. THAT IS SO UNFAIR, GAME. then I was like "..... fuck this I am W-Acting this fucker every single turn I can." and it died almost instantly :|;; other than that I haven't really taken any losses. I don't know if it's because I used to suck really bad or if it's just because DDS1 & 2 have increased my pain factor. Or maybe I've just finally learned to strategize instead of hacking away. WHO'S TO SAY?

hnngh this no-internet situation is less easy to cope than i thought it would be even with all the stuff i could be doing instead of... fussing with the internet. idk, but multitasking is quite hard when when one thing is so far-removed from everything else. ..... if a short elevator ride counts as far removed, but STILL. it's weirdly hard to be productive without the option of dicking around simultaneously. ..... .... i think there is something fundamentally very wrong with my work process when I put it that way, BUT. BUT. I don't know, i don't think I'm the only one who thinks using a computer without the 'net just feels odd. and if i come down here at times the next does not work, I'm more inclined to fuss with it than.... type shit or whatever.

BUT YEAH. i was going to money ramble here, but then I figured I probably shouldn't, hahaha. although speaking of money, the old man said i need to stop fretting over it, and I think he's right. ....... I think it is the first time I have ever took something my dad's said seriously, wow.

yeah idk. i don't feel like writing more.

baaack at school. the internet is down. again. Unless my ethernet magically died while i wasn't looking, but it says its running, so.. IDEK. this is FABULOUS because i forgot my headphones LMFAO. beeeest. at least this time if INTERNET HELL starts up in this lounge again i can just cut my losses and go upstairs to read more of my umineko re-read or play some xenosaga, and if for SOME REASON the 'net is still out in a week or so i bought myself a PSP for ~80 :D. .... i should. probably get a game or two for that. and a memory card. that might help. that might help a lot. as for right now, dad is mailing my headphones, and i'm just listening to my music live. FUCK EVERYONE AROUND I JUST DON'T CARE. IF YOU DON'T WANNA LISTEN TO MY WEABOO BULLSHIT KISS MY ASS.

i wonder what game i should play first hahahaha. I guess I'll go with Crisis Coar and then Dissidia and fffff i need ac!d and portable ops too and. WELL, YOU GET THE IDEA. Getting a PSP was def. not a waste even if I probably shouldn't have BUT IT'LL BE ON NEXT MONTH'S BILL ANYWAY and christmas money and stuff. yes. hi.

IT IS WEDNESDAY YET? L;JAGGF /FLAILS.

i finally got myself an espresso maker hooooo. old man set me up with the thing and some colombian roast. now, if i only had some caramel flavor :x i DO need to go food shopping today, so i suppose we shall see. ... if i can get myself out the door, wow. weirdly, not having my own internet only INCREASES distractions and languidness. you would think that would be the exact opposite, what the hell.